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About this time one of the nurses, now in the Hospital, saw her; who observes, that she was a perfect 'doll in beauty.' The nurse then exhorted her to turn from her evil way of life; but she replied, 'I have never been taught to do any kind of work; I have no friends that will receive me; and I must proceed, or perish with hunger.'

"If won, to equal ills betrayed,

Woe waits the insect and the maid;
A life of pain, the loss of peace,
From infant's play, and man's caprice;
The lovely toy, so fiercely sought,
Has lost its charm by being caught;
For every touch that woo'd its stay,
Has brush'd its brightest hue away;
Till charm, and hue, aud beauty gone,
"Tis left to fly or fall alone!'

BYRON.

Now she is as destitute of mind as the bed on which she reclines, is covered with putrefaction, and must sink down a loathsome, unfriended object to the grave!

But thy parents were sinners too! Should they not have pitied and rescued thee, lost female?

Could her soul communicate any thoughts to her unhappy companions,-could her tongue move, methinks her language would be- Why did I not pass away in secret, like the flower of the rock, that lifts its fair head unseen, and strews its withered leaves on the blast? I pass away in my youth, and my name shall not be heard. Or it will be heard with sorrow, and the tears of Nuäth will fall. Thou wilt be sad, son of Morni, for the fallen fame of Oithona. But she

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shall sleep in the narrow tomb, far from the voice of the mourner.'

January 20th.

THE Rev. A. STANSBURY, a minister sound in doctrine and chaste in style, preached for me in the Almshouse this evening. After public worship, I visited a dying woman, who felt herself to be a lost sinner, and wished to know how she could be saved. Her room was full of dirty, ragged, miserable beings; but they all paid attention to the instruction afforded their dying companion.

January 21st.

EARLY this morning, a sick man, W. F. sent for me to call at the Almshouse, and pray with him. Repeatedly I have visited him, but he is never weary of hearing the gospel, and of uniting in prayer. This man, when young, was extravagantly foud of the theatre, and associated with lewd people there, so long, that he lost his health, and, by the virulence of disease, his eyes. After he was thus visited for iniquity, the present place of his residence became his only home. Here he married one of the paupers, by whom he has a large family of children. He expresses much gratitude for my attentions to the welfare of his soul; and declares, that he desires complete sanctification from his sins, while his sole confidence for justification is reposed in Jesus Christ. This man I would not reproach with the past, which he deplores; but to the reader I must say, that attach

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person from all serious business, exposed him to strong temptatious, and, in the issue, not only deprived him of sight, but made him the father of a numerous race of paupers. He was a man of no mean mental powers; but now he reposes in one of the lowest wards of the Almshouse, wears a long beard, is exposed to vermin, and is surrounded by every thing which is calculated to offend his remaining senses, and annihilate all hope for the present life.

In the same room an old woman reclined on the floor, before the fire, who was violently affected with an ague. She was brought in from the street yesterday, and has undoubtedly destroyed herself by inebriation. I spake to her of death, judgment, and eternity; of salvation by Christ, and damnation by sin. She could not reply; but she shed one solitary tear, shook her head, and uttered lamentable groans.

In the Hospital I have had a long conversation with a yellow man, who was taught to read by the Society of Friends. They gave him a Bible, which he highly esteems, and which he has read abundantly. He was reading it when I entered the room, and expressed a wish that the patients might all be made wise by their afflictions. He united in my desire, he said; but added, that it was a difficult thing. He had lived, he informed me, with all sorts of people, and had found that nothing but the Bible was the thing. "It is my strongest desire to abide by that," he said; "but how to do it, is the difficulty. It tells me that no unrighteous man shall enter into Heaven, and I cannot get clear from all sin yet. I strive to be

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holy; and I know that, by the help of God, I must make myself perfectly holy before I die, or I am lost.”

You cannot make yourself holy by your own unassisted exertions,' I said; and will never be perfectly free from sin while you live; yet, if you are a Christian, you will nevertheless seek for perfect purity; but not as the ground of your acceptance with God.'

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Why, now, I will tell you what I think. I can do nothing without help; but, by God's help, I hope to get perfect before I die, that I may be received to glory; and I'll tell you, one passage troubles me much, for it says, 'If the righteous scarcely be saved, where shall the ungodly and the sinner appear?" That shows its hard work to be saved; and I find it 80."

Never have I conversed with any one, who appeared more sincerely to seek perfection as the ground of his own salvation. The doctrine of acceptance, on account of the righteousness of Christ, was, as the reader might expect, urged upon his consideration. It seemed a new doctrine of righteousness, for which he could hardly relinquish his previous scheme of a righteousness, which he supposed the Spirit of Christ should co-operate with him in effecting, for his justification.

Finally, I asked, if he could live without prayer. "Well, now, I will tell you fairly, I do pray; but when I a'n't sincere, I know that I gain nothing by it: and I must tell you, that I find it hard to pray for my enemies as I would for my friends."

'Do you wish to injure those who injure you ? Perhaps you feel a strong inclination to double up

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THE YELLOW MAN.

that great fist, and knock your adversary down. Our old nature not unfrequently excites such a disposition, especially in men of your frame of body and situation

in life.'

"Well, then, I'll be honest here too. When I see a man whom I do not like, I pass straight by him, without taking any notice of him; and I wish he may be a better man. That's all; for I knew that if I do not forgive my enemies, I shall not be forgiven. But, as I said before, when I pray, I feel it hard to pray for my enemies as for my friends."

There is something in this person's mind and manner, which appears superior to any thing which I have ever found in one of his complexion. It shall be my endeavour to instruct him more perfectly in the doctrines of Christ.

To-day, my gratitude to God has been renewedly excited, and I have additional evidence that God will not send a soldier of the cross on an expedition at his own charges. Many, on the publication of my first Journal, expressed their astonishment, that, in such a benevolent city as this, any preacher to the poor should fail of receiving maintenance. The truth is, that the reputation which the pious people of this metropolis have for liberality, is well founded; but my situation was not generally known. It was supposed by many, that I received a competence; and others (few however in number) from some doctrinal differences, wished that Penury might drive me from the city. The following is

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