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exemplary manner. For when his friends perceived that his strength was failing, and were most urgent that he should desist from his labours, at least for a time, he replied, "I shall never think of that, until I am obliged to it; for there is no work in which I am so comfortable as that of preaching Christ." He therefore persisted to preach until his strength utterly failed him, and then he requested that his name should be removed from the Plan. Never was he guilty of neglecting any of his appointments when it was in his power to keep them.

It was with great reluctance (owing to the modest estimate he formed of his own talents and experience) that, in 1828, he was prevailed on to take the charge of a class; but when put into that office, he laboured most faithfully to discharge the duties of it, until within three or four months of his death, when he was confined to his own dwelling. The views and feelings which he entertained with regard to this office were remarkably scriptural and correct. It would be a great blessing to the Methodist Connexion, if all its ClassLeaders saw and felt as he did.

In the course of the summer of 1837 an abscess formed in his right ankle, which proved exceedingly painful. When it was known what the nature of his complaint was, and that it was likely to prove a tedious affair, he said, "It is the Lord's doing. I will endeavour patiently to submit to it: it is for some wise end, no doubt. But how mysterious are the ways of Providence," added he, "that I should be laid aside at this time," (it being the time of his removal to a new situation,)"when my services seem to be necessary! Well, it is all right: afflictions spring not out of the dust. The Lord's will be done." Hearing the opinion of his medical attendant on his case, he said to his friends, who were anxious to know what that opinion "Mr. was, has passed the sentence of death on me. I believe he thinks that I never shall recover." And the announcement of this conclusion appears to have made a deep impression on his mind; for, from that time, he was much given to very serious reflection, and could not endure that any thing light or trifling should be introduced; and he desired that all books but the Bible might be put away. One evening, when apparently he was wrapt in thought, Mrs. Pape said to him, 66 My dear, you seem very low: what is the matter?" He replied, "O my dear, what a fool I have been! In how different a light do I see things now from what I ever did before! What is this life compared with eternity? This world is all vanity; it is all delusion; it is a cheat! If the Lord shall see it good to bring me through this affliction, I shall, with his help, lead a very different life. This visitation will be the best thing the Lord could have sent to me. How do I repent that I have spent my life so unprofitably; that I have not been more devoted to God; that I have not laboured to bring more glory to him! O that I had my time to begin again!

With my present views, I should be a very different man! O my Lord, pardon me! pardon these sins of omission! How much might I have done that I have left undone !"

After this, although at times the variableness of his complaint gave some reason to hope for his recovery, yet there were other circumstances connected with it which led him to think that his affliction was unto death. One day, when his medical attendants left his room, he observed to Mrs. Pape, "I think my doctors are very flat to-day. It appears to me that they begin to consider my case as hopeless." She replied, "I am sorry to say, that they give very little hope of your recovery. I think, my dear, that there is no help for you but in the Head Physician." He answered, "I think not. Well, come; all is well. My Jesus hath done all things well.' The Judge of all the earth cannot do wrong. All the days of my appointed time will I wait until my change come. You see, my dear," continued he to Mrs. Pape, "that I am apparently about to be cut down in the midst of my days, being only thirty-seven years of age. But thirty years more will lay all of my age level with me; while a large portion of those now living will have come to the grave long before that time; and that period will soon roll over." A short time after this, being asked by a friend how he was, he replied, "Praise the Lord, I am very near the end. I have cast anchor within the veil. I have seen ships when they have returned from long and dangerous voyages, as they approached port, fold their sails and put safely into harbour; and this sight has afforded me much pleasure."

About a week before his death, he appeared one night to be very much affected; and, giving vent to his feelings, he said to Mrs. Pape, "O my dear Mary, as I am now about to be taken from you, I have, as my dying request, to beg that you will read the word of God, pray much, and attend the house of God, particularly week-night preaching. In thus doing, you will get comfort and relief to your mind; and the Lord will bless and bring you through this troublesome world, so that we shall meet again. And be sure that you do not neglect to give that dear lad" (referring to their son, since dead) "religious instruction; and may the Lord bless and protect him!"

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Not long after this, on being asked by Mrs. Pape if he was comfortable in his mind, he answered, "I have been thinking a great deal about the law." She remarked, "I think you can acquit yourself by the law." He observed, "O, I come far short; and then, after all, there is that sweeping declaration, He that offendeth in one point, is guilty of all."" Mrs. Pape said, "I think the enemy is sifting you;" to which he replied, "I find I have to fight." This conflict with the foe lasted for several hours, and was indeed severe; but he wrestled with his God, and overcame his adversary. Coming out of the conflict, he exclaimed, "No, no; no more, vain world! I

have done with thee. Thou art a cheat; thou art a cheat; thou art a cheat! Thou hast promised what thou never couldst give. O for Christ! O for Christ! Jesus, and all in him are mine: He is all to me." Thus he continued exulting in the Lord, until he was quite exhausted. After he had recovered his strength a little, he said to Mrs. Pape, 66 0 my dear Mary, I want to tell you what a glorious deliverance the Lord hath wrought out for me. O praise the Lord, it is done now: the Lord hath enabled me to give all up! I now can give up the world; I can give thee and my dear lad up also. Not that I do not love you. No; I love you as dearly as my own life; but my Lord calls, and I must leave you. Praised be his name, I am quite ready; I am waiting the Lord's time. Should death come to-night, all would be well. I have no fear; for perfect love casteth out all fear. O what a struggle I have had! what a conflict! The enemy has thrown his fiery darts at me. It has been as though all the powers of darkness had been combined against me; but the Lord hath brought me off a conqueror! O yes, I see my way quite clear to the throne, through the blood of the Lamb!"

After this he said but little, save that his mind had been kept in peace, and that his thoughts had been occupied in meditation on those words of St. Paul, "Who shall change our vile body, that it may be fashioned like unto his glorious body," &c. "Yes," added he, "he shall fashion it like unto his glorious body. It is sown in weakness; it shall be raised with power! It is sown in dishonour, but it shall be raised in glory!"

The day before his death, he said to a friend, who had called on him, “O John, whatever you do, give your heart to God; and do it without delay. There is no time for delay. What is this world? What will it do for you, when you come to lie on a death-bed? They talk of death-bed repentance; but what must I have done, had my religion been to seek, under all this weight of affliction? My soul must have remained unsaved, and have gone out of the world unprepared." To another friend, he said, "I have built on a Rock, and that Rock is Christ." And to Mr. Stevenson, (one of the Preachers,) who had asked him if he found Jesus near, he replied :

"I find him lifting up my head;

He brings salvation near;

His presence makes me free indeed,

And he will soon appear."

On the morning of his death, at his desire, the sacrament of the Lord's supper was administered to him, after receiving which he could converse but little. Towards evening he took but little notice of any thing, being apparently engaged in praising God. But, about four o'clock, he burst into a remarkably sweet strain of song, though neither the words nor the tune were known, and so continued for some time; and then, as if his thoughts had entirely taken their flight

from earth, he talked of nothing but chariots and angels, shining garments, and crowns, and music; shouting hallelujah, until his exulting spirit took its triumphant flight to paradise, December 28th, 1837. Reader, may thy last end, and mine, be like his !

MEMOIR OF MRS. HARRIOT WICE,
Of Wakefield:

BY THE REV. W. H. CLARKSON.

MRS. HARRIOT WICE, the eldest daughter of Mr. Jonathan Haigh, timber-merchant, of Wakefield, was born February 18th, 1801. When about fifteen years of age, she was introduced to a very pious family of the Wesleyan Connexion, whose conversation often turned upon the value and importance of vital Christianity. In familiar intercourse with this family, she was often much interested by the excellent and judicious remarks they made on the sermons they had heard. This event proved the commencement of a new era in her life and conduct. She had been accustomed regularly to attend the established Church with her father every Lord's-day morning; and though she still continued to do so up to the time of her marriage, yet she also commenced a regular attendance at the Methodist chapel on Sunday and Wednesday evenings. She likewise began to meet in class with the late Mr. Hargate, and to attend other Christian ordinances connected with the Wesleyan society. Her parents, being strongly attached to the established Church, at first much opposed her association with the Methodists; but when they witnessed the great change which divine grace had produced in her whole temper and deportment, their prejudice yielded to the force of conviction, and they allowed her, without interruption or inconvenience, to pursue the sacred course into which she had been led, she believed, by the providence and grace of God. Soon after her union with the Wesleyan society, she found a divine change to pass upon her mind. She obtained the forgiveness of all her sins, through faith in the blood of Christ, and felt the love of God shed abroad in her heart by the Holy Ghost given unto her. She then became an active and efficient member of the Christian church; faithfully and diligently sustaining the two offices of Teacher in the Sunday-school, and Tract Distributor; and in these departments of labour she was made the happy and honoured instrument of bringing many to sit under the ministry of the word; some of whom became truly converted to God, and by his grace have continued to glorify Him to the present time.

Her epistolary correspondence, in the year 1824, will enable us to form some judgment of the state of her religious experience. July 6th, on a visit from home, she thus writes to a friend :-" In the family I am visiting we have the form of godliness; but I feel nothing

less than the love of God can satisfy the wants of my immortal soul. I have plenty of time for reading and other devotional exercises. You know they are congenial to our new nature. O may I more than ever delight in those heavenly enjoyments, and keep in mind that heaven is a prepared place for a prepared people!"

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July 29th, she again writes:-" After all I have seen and enjoyed, I am constrained to say, All is vanity;' and 'it is' only 'religion that can give sweetest pleasure while we live.' I would rather be a door-keeper in the house of God, than a dweller in the tents of sin and folly; and an hour in his courts is better than a thousand elsewhere. I trust the Lord will restore me to my wonted privileges, and that I shall soon worship with you under the shechinah of his love. O may I more than ever improve those privileges of meeting in the Bethels of the Most High! I have had many enjoyments this week; and, bless the Lord, I have freedom of access at a throne grace, and that peace which the world cannot give nor take away.” "August 12th.-There is nothing I regret leaving home for so much as the loss of the means of grace, which are as wells of salvation to my soul; for, as the body cannot live without temporal food, no more can a soul live to God without spiritual food. I am conscious I need not want when our heavenly Father says, Ask, and receive, that your joy may be full.' O may I always be willing to come to that fountain which flows from Emmanuel's side, the streams whereof make glad the city of God! We have it without money and without price; but I sensibly feel the loss of my own closet, and those delightful means of grace, which are more to me than meat and drink. Never did I see the evil of dress so much as at this place. I am thankful that, by the grace of God, I was called in the early period of my life to set my affections on things above, and to seek the adorning of the robes of righteousness of our crucified Redeemer. I have retired to meet you at the throne of grace at the appointed hour, and have felt nearness of access; and, being assisted by the divine Spirit, I have held high converse with the Father of all our mercies."

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"September 12th.-I have placed my confidence in my heavenly Father, who has said, 'Acknowledge me in all thy ways, and I will direct thy steps;' and that all things work together for good to them that love God.' This is all I want, being willing to be any thing or nothing, that I may be devoted to him, and glorify his name below, and find my way to heaven."

In October, 1824, she was appointed to take Mr. Walton's female juvenile class, and continued their Leader until her union with Mr. Wice, which took place in June, 1825. Several of those committed to her care, and looking up to her for spiritual guidance, were led by her judicious counsel and holy example to persevere in the Christian course, and are still steady and consistent members of the society.

After her marriage she resided in the country, and was made a

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