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friends where he was going, he replied, "he go down unto it; of its thousand isles, and had no friends." of the vast continents it washes; of its reThese pleasant, and some mournful pas-ceiving the mighty Plate, or Orellana, into sages with the first sight of the sea, co- its bosom, without disturbance, or sense of operating with youth, and a sense of holi- augmentation; of Biscay swells, and the days, and out-of-door adventure, to me mariner that had been pent up in populous cities for many months before,-have left upon my mind the fragrance as of summer days gone by, bequeathing nothing but their remem- of fatal rocks, and the "still-vexed Berbrance for cold and wintry hours to chew moothes;" of great whirlpools, and the

upon.

For many a day, and many a dreadful night,
Incessant labouring round the stormy Cape;

water-spout; of sunken ships, and sumless
treasures swallowed up in the unrestoring |
depths; of fishes and quaint monsters, to
which all that is terrible on earth—

Be but as buggs to frighten babes withal,
Compared with the creatures in the sea's entral,

of naked savages, and Juan Fernandez; of
pearls, and shells; of coral beds, and of en-
chanted isles; of mermaids' grots—

I do not assert that in sober earnest he expects to be shown all these wonders at once, but he is under the tyranny of a mighty faculty, which haunts him with confused hints and shadows of all these; and when the actual object opens first upon him, seen (in tame weather, too, most likely) from our unromantic coasts-a speck, a slip of seawater, as it shows to him-what can it prove but a very unsatisfying and even diminutive

Will it be thought a digression (it may spare some unwelcome comparisons), if I endeavour to account for the dissatisfaction which I have heard so many persons confess to have felt (as I did myself feel in part on this occasion), at the sight of the sea for the first time? I think the reason usually given -referring to the incapacity of actual objects for satisfying our preconceptions of them-scarcely goes deep enough into the question. Let the same person see a lion, an elephant, a mountain for the first time in his life, and he shall perhaps feel himself a little mortified. The things do not fill up that space, which the idea of them seemed to take up in his mind. But they have still a correspondency to his first notion, and in time grow up to it, so as to produce a very similar impression enlarging themselves (if I may say so) upon familiarity. But the sea re-entertainment? Or if he has come to it mains a disappointment.-Is it not, that in the latter we had expected to behold (absurdly, I grant, but, I am afraid, by the law of imagination, unavoidably) not a definite object, as those wild beasts, or that mountain compassable by the eye, but all the sea at once, THE COMMENSURATE ANTAGONIST OF THE EARTH? I do not say we tell ourselves so much, but the craving of the mind is to be satisfied with nothing less. I will suppose the case of a young person of fifteen (as I then was) knowing nothing of the sea, but I love town, or country; but this detestfrom description. He comes to it for the able Cinque Port is neither. I hate these first time-all that he has been reading of it scrubbed shoots, thrusting out their starved all his life, and that the most enthusiastic foliage from between the horrid fissures of part of life, all he has gathered from narra- dusty innutritious rocks; which the amateur tives of wandering seamen,-what he has calls "verdure to the edge of the sea." I gained from true voyages, and what he require woods, and they show me stunted cherishes as credulously from romance and coppices. I cry out for the water-brooks, poetry,-crowding their images, and exacting and pant for fresh streams, and inland strange tributes from expectation.· He murmurs. I cannot stand all day on the thinks of the great deep, and of those who naked beach, watching the capricious hues

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from the mouth of a river, was it much more than the river widening? and, even out of sight of land, what had he but a flat watery horizon about him, nothing comparable to the vast o'er-curtaining sky, his familiar object, seen daily without dread or amazement ?-Who, in similar circumstances, has not been tempted to exclaim with Charoba, in the poem of Gebir,

Is this the mighty ocean? is this all?

creatures (I know they have not the courage to confess it themselves) how gladly would they exchange their sea-side rambles for a Sunday walk on the green-sward of their accustomed Twickenham meadows!

of the sea, shifting like the colours of a dying—if the sea were, as they would have us mullet. I am tired of looking out at the believe, a book "to read strange matter in ?" windows of this island-prison. I would fain what are their foolish concert-rooms, if they retire into the interior of my cage. While I come, as they would fain be thought to do, gaze upon the sea, I want to be on it, over it, to listen to the music of the waves? All is across it. It binds me in with chains, as of false and hollow pretension. They come, iron. My thoughts are abroad. I should because it is the fashion, and to spoil the not so feel in Staffordshire. There is no nature of the place. They are, mostly, as I home for me here. There is no sense of have said, stock-brokers; but I have watched home at Hastings. It is a place of fugitive the better sort of them-now and then, an resort, an heterogeneous assemblage of sea- honest citizen (of the old stamp), in the mews and stock-brokers, Amphitrites of the simplicity of his heart, shall bring down his town, and misses that coquet with the Ocean. wife and daughters, to taste the sea breezes. If it were what it was in its primitive shape, I always know the date of their arrival. It and what it ought to have remained, a fair, is easy to see it in their countenance. A honest fishing-town, and no more, it were day or two they go wandering on the something-with a few straggling fishermen's shingles, picking up cockle-shells, and thinkhuts scattered about, artless as its cliffs, and ing them great things; but, in a poor week, with their materials filched from them, it imagination slackens: they begin to discover were something. I could abide to dwell that cockles produce no pearls, and thenwith Meshech; to assort with fisher-swains, O then!-if I could interpret for the pretty and smugglers. There are, or I dream there are, many of this latter occupation here. Their faces become the place. I like a smuggler. He is the only honest thief. He robs nothing but the revenue,-an abstraction I never greatly cared about. I could go I would ask of one of these sea-charmed out with them in their mackerel boats, or emigrants, who think they truly love the about their less ostensible business, with sea, with its wild usages, what would their some satisfaction. I can even tolerate those feelings be, if some of the unsophisticated poor victims to monotony, who from day to aborigines of this place, encouraged by their day pace along the beach, in endless progress courteous questionings here, should venture, and recurrence, to watch their illicit country- on the faith of such assured sympathy bemen-townsfolk or brethren perchance-tween them, to return the visit, and come up whistling to the sheathing and unsheathing to see-London. I must imagine them with of their cutlasses (their only solace), who, under the mild name of preventive service, keep up a legitimated civil warfare. in the deplorable absence of a foreign one, to show their detestation of run hollands, and zeal for Old England. But it is the visitants from town, that come here to say that they have been here, with no more relish of the sea I am sure that no town-bred or inlandthan a pond-perch or a dace might be sup-born subjects can feel their true and natural posed to have, that are my aversion. I feel nourishment at these sea-places. Nature, like a foolish dace in these regions, and have as little toleration for myself here, as for them. What can they want here? if they had a true relish of the ocean, why have they brought all this land luggage with them? or why pitch their civilised tents in the desert? What mean these scanty bookrooms-marine libraries as they entitle them Thamesis.

their fishing-tackle on their back, as we carry our town necessaries. What a sensation would it cause in Lothbury? What vehement laughter would it not excite among

The daughters of Cheapside, and wives of Lombard-street!

where she does not mean us for mariners and vagabonds, bids us stay at home. The salt foam seems to nourish a spleen. I am not half so good-natured as by the milder waters of my natural river. I would exchange these sea-gulls for swans, and scud a swallow for ever about the banks of

THE CONVALESCENT.

A PRETTY severe fit of indisposition which, under the name of a nervous fever, has made a prisoner of me for some weeks past, and is but slowly leaving me, has reduced me to an incapacity of reflecting upon any topic foreign to itself. Expect no healthy conclusions from me this month, reader; I can offer you only sick men's dreams.

question to be tried at Pekin. Peradventure from some whispering, going on about the house, not intended for his hearing, he picks up enough to make him understand, that things went cross-grained in the court yesterday, and his friend is ruined. But the word "friend," and the word “ruin," disturb him no more than so much jargon. He is not to think of anything but how to get better.

What a world of foreign cares are merged in that absorbing consideration!

He has put on the strong armour of sickness, he is wrapped in the callous hide of suffering; he keeps his sympathy, like some curious vintage, under trusty lock and key, for his own use only.

And truly the whole state of sickness is such; for what else is it but a magnificent dream for a man to lie a-bed, and draw daylight curtains about him; and, shutting out the sun, to induce a total oblivion of all the works which are going on under it? To become insensible to all the operations of life, except the beatings of one feeble pulse ? If there be a regal solitude, it is a sick bed. How the patient lords it there; what He lies pitying himself, honing and moancaprices he acts without control! how king- ing to himself; he yearneth over himself; like he sways his pillow-tumbling, and toss- his bowels are even melted within him, to ing, and shifting, and lowering, and thumping, think what he suffers; he is not ashamed to and flatting, and moulding it, to the ever-weep over himself. varying requisitions of his throbbing temples. He is for ever plotting how to do some He changes sides oftener than a politician. good to himself; studying little stratagems Now he lies full length, then half-length, and artificial alleviations. obliquely, transversely, head and feet quite across the bed; and none accuses him of tergiversation. Within the four curtains he is absolute. They are his Mare Clausum.

How sickness enlarges the dimensions of a man's self to himself! he is his own exclusive object. Supreme selfishness is inculcated upon him as his only duty. "Tis the Two Tables of the Law to him. He has nothing to think of but how to get well. What passes out of doors, or within them, so he hear not the jarring of them, affects him

not.

A little while ago he was greatly concerned in the event of a lawsuit, which was to be the making or the marring of his dearest friend. He was to be seen trudging about upon this man's errand to fifty quarters of the town at once, jogging this witness, refreshing that solicitor. The cause was to come on yesterday. He is absolutely as indifferent to the decision, as if it were a

He makes the most of himself; dividing himself, by an allowable fiction, into as many distinct individuals, as he hath sore and sorrowing members. Sometimes he meditates-as of a thing apart from him-upon his poor aching head, and that dull pain which, dozing or waking, lay in it all the past night like a log, or palpable substance of pain, not to be removed without opening the very skull, as it seemed, to take it thence. Or he pities his long, clammy, attenuated fingers. He compassionates himself all over; and his bed is a very discipline of humanity, and tender heart.

He is his own sympathiser; and instinctively feels that none can so well perform that office for him. He cares for few spectators to his tragedy. Only that punctual face of the old nurse pleases him, that announces his broths and his cordials. He likes it because it is so unmoved, and because he can pour forth his feverish ejacu

lations before it as unreservedly as to his lay and acted his despotic fancies-how is it bed-post.

reduced to a common bed-room! The trimness of the very bed has something petty and unmeaning about it. It is made every day. How unlike to that wavy, many-furrowed, oceanic surface, which it presented so short a time since, when to make it was a service not to be thought of at oftener than three or four day revolutions, when the tient was with pain and grief to be lifted for a little while out of it, to submit to the

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To the world's business he is dead. He understands not what the callings and occupations of mortals are; only he has a glimmering conceit of some such thing, when the doctor makes his daily call: and even in the lines on that busy face he reads no multiplicity of patients, but solely conceives of himself as the sick man. To what other uneasy couch the good man is hastening, when he slips out of his chamber, folding up his thin douceur encroachments of unwelcome neatness, and so carefully, for fear of rustling-is no speculation which he can at present entertain. He thinks only of the regular return of the same phenomenon at the same hour to

morrow.

decencies which his shaken frame deprecated; then to be lifted into it again, for another three or four days' respite, to flounder it out of shape again, while every fresh furrow was an historical record of some shifting pos

Hushed are those mysterious sighs-those

Household rumours touch him not. Some ture, some uneasy turning, some seeking faint murmur, indicative of life going on for a little ease; and the shrunken skin within the house, soothes him, while he scarce told a truer story than the crumpled knows not distinctly what it is. He is not coverlid. to know anything, not to think of anything. Servants gliding up or down the distant groans-so much more awful, while we knew not from what caverns of vast hidden suffering they proceeded. The Lernean pangs are quenched. The riddle of sickness is solved; and Philoctetes is become an ordinary personage.

staircase, treading as upon velvet, gently keep his ear awake, so long as he troubles not himself further than with some feeble guess at their errands. Exacter knowledge would be a burthen to him: he can just endure the pressure of conjecture. He opens his eye faintly at the dull stroke of the muffled knocker, and closes it again without asking "Who was it?" He is flattered by a general notion that inquiries are making after him, but he cares not to know the name of the inquirer. In the general stillness, and awful hush of the house, he lies in state, and feels his sovereignty.

'To be sick is to enjoy monarchal prerogatives. Compare the silent tread, and quiet ministry, almost by the eye only, with which he is served with the careless demeanour, the unceremonious goings in and out (slapping of doors, or leaving them open) of the very same attendants, when he is getting a little better-and you will confess, that from the bed of sickness (throne let me rather call it) to the elbow-chair of convalescence, is a fall from dignity, amounting to a deposition.

How convalescence shrinks a man back to his pristine stature! where is now the space, which he occupied so lately, in his own, in the family's eye?

The scene of his regalities, his sick room, which was his presence chamber, where he

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Perhaps some relic of the sick man's dream of greatness survives in the still lingering visitations of the medical attendant. But how is he, too, changed with everything else! Can this be he-this man of news-of chatof anecdote-of everything but physic-can this be he, who so lately came between the patient and his cruel enemy, as on some solemn embassy from Nature, erecting herself into a high mediating party ?-Pshaw! 'tis some old woman.

Farewell with him all that made sickness pompous-the spell that hushed the household-the desert-like stillness, felt throughout its inmost chambers-the mute attendance-the inquiry by looks-the still softer delicacies of self-attention-the sole and single eye of distemper alonely fixed upon itself-world-thoughts excluded—the man a world unto himself-his own theatre

What a speck is he dwindled into!

In this flat swamp of convalescence, left by the ebb of sickness, yet far enough from the terra firma of established health, your note, dear Editor, reached me, requesting—an

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article. In Articulo Mortis, thought I; world alike; to its laws, and to its literature. but it is something hard-and the quibble, The hypochondriac flatus is subsiding; the wretched as it was, relieved me. The sum- acres, which in imagination I had spread mons, unseasonable as it appeared, seemed to over-for the sick man swells in the sole conlink me on again to the petty businesses of templation of his single sufferings, till he life, which I had lost sight of; a gentle becomes a Tityus to himself—are wasting to call to activity, however trivial; a wholesome a span; and for the giant of self-importance, meaning from that preposterous dream of which I was so lately, you have me once self-absorption-the puffy state of sickness-again in my natural pretensions-the lean in which I confess to have lain so long, insen- and meagre figure of your insignificant sible to the magazines and monarchies, of the Essayist.

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-did Nature to him frame,

SANITY OF TRUE GENIUS.

As all things but his judgment overcame;

His judgment like the heavenly moon did show,
Tempering that mighty sea below."

So far from the position holding true, that ness, nor this misanthropy, so unchecked, but great wit (or genius, in our modern way of that,-never letting the reins of reason wholly speaking) has a necessary alliance with go, while most he seems to do so, he has insanity, the greatest wits, on the contrary, his better genius still whispering at his ear, will ever be found to be the sanest writers. with the good servant Kent suggesting saner It is impossible for the mind to conceive of a counsels, or with the honest steward Flavius mad Shakspeare. The greatness of wit, by recommending kindlier resolutions. Where which the poetic talent is here chiefly to be he seems most to recede from humanity, he understood, manifests itself in the admirable will be found the truest to it. From beyond balance of all the faculties. Madness is the the scope of Nature if he summon possible disproportionate straining or excess of any existences, he subjugates them to the law of one of them. "So strong a wit," says Cow- her consistency. He is beautifully loyal to ley, speaking of a poetical friend, that sovereign directress, even when he appears most to betray and desert her. His ideal tribes submit to policy; his very monsters are tamed to his hand, even as that wild sea-brood, shepherded by Proteus. He The ground of the mistake is, that men, find- tames, and he clothes them with attributes ing in the raptures of the higher poetry a of flesh and blood, till they wonder at themcondition of exaltation, to which they have selves, like Indian Islanders forced to submit no parallel in their own experience, besides to European vesture. Caliban, the Witches, the spurious resemblance of it in dreams and are as true to the laws of their own nature fevers, impute a state of dreaminess and (ours with a difference), as Othello, Hamlet, fever to the poet. But the true poet dreams and Macbeth. Herein the great and the being awake. He is not possessed by his little wits are differenced; that if the latter subject, but has dominion over it. In the wander ever so little from nature or actual groves of Eden he walks familiar as in his existence, they lose themselves, and their native paths. He ascends the empyrean readers. Their phantoms are lawless; their heaven, and is not intoxicated. He treads visions night-mares. They do not create, the burning marl without dismay; he wins which implies shaping and consistency. Their his flight without self-loss through realms of imaginations are not active-for to be active chaos" and old night." Or if, abandoning is to call something into act and form-but himself to that severer chaos of a "human passive, as men in sick dreams. For the mind untuned," he is content awhile to be super-natural, or something super-added to mad with Lear, or to hate mankind (a sort of what we know of nature, they give you the madness) with Timon, neither is that mad-plainly non-natural. And if this were all,

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