continue your civilities to the mistrustful, uneasy Pamela, who now will begin to think better of hers and

"Your friend, &c."

I had hardly time to transcribe these letters, though, writing so much, I write pretty fast, Xbefore they both came up again in high spirits; and Mr Williams said, I am glad at my heart, madam, that I was beforehand in my declarations to you. This generous letter has made me the happiest man on earth; and, Mrs Jewkes, you may be sure, that if I can procure this fair one's consent, I shall think myself-I interrupted the good man, and said, Ah! Mr Williams, take care, take care; don't let-There I stopt; and Mrs Jewkes said, Still mistrustful! I never saw the like in my life! But I see, said she, I was not wrong, while my old orders lasted, to be wary of you both. I should have a hard task to prevent you, I find; for, as the saying is, Nought can restrain consent of twain.

I doubted not her taking hold of his joyful indiscretion. I took her letter, and said, Here, Mrs Jewkes, is yours; I thank you for it; but I have been so long in a maze, that I can say nothing of this for the present. Time will bring all to light.-Sir, said I, here is yours. May every thing turn to your happiness! I give you joy of my master's goodness in the living. It will be dying, said he, not a living, without you. -Forbear, sir, said I; while I have a father and a mother, I am not my own mistress, poor as they are; and I'll see myself quite at liberty, before I shall think myself fit to make a choice. Mrs Jewkes held up her eyes and hands, and said, Such art, such caution, such cunning, for thy years! Well!-Why, said I, (that he might be more on his guard, though I hope there cannot be deceit in this; 'twould be strange villainy, and that is a hard word, if there should !) I have been so used to be made a fool of by fortune, that I hardly can tell how to govern myself; and am almost an infidel as to mankind. But I hope I may be wrong; henceforth, Mrs Jewkes, you shall regulate my opinions as you please, and I will consult you in every thing-(that I think proper, said I to myself)—for to be sure, though I may forgive her, I can never love her.

She left Mr Williams and me a few minutes together; and I said, Consider, sir, consider what you have done.-'Tis impossible, said he, there can be deceit. I hope so, said I; but what necessity was there for you to talk of your former declaration? Let this be as it will, that could do no good, especially before this woman. Forgive me, sir; they talk of women's promptness of speech; but, indeed, I see an honest heart is not always to be trusted with itself in bad company.

He was going to reply, but, though her task is said to be ALMOST (I took notice of that word) at an end, she came up to us again and said, Well, I had a good mind to shew you the

way to church to-morrow. I was glad of this, because, though in my present doubtful situation I should not have chosen it, yet I would have encouraged her proposal, to be able to judge by her being in earnest or otherwise, whether one might depend upon the rest. But Mr Williams again indiscreetly helped her to an excuse, by saying, that it was now best to defer it one Sunday, and till matters were riper for my appearance; and she readily took hold of it, and confirmed his opinion.

After all, I hope the best; but if this should turn out to be a plot, I fear nothing but a miracle can save me. But, sure the heart of man is not capable of such black deceit. Besides, Mr Williams has it under his own hand, and he dare not but be in earnest; and then again, though to be sure he has been very wrong to me, yet his education, and parents' example, have neither of them taught him such very black contrivances. So I will hope for the best.

Mr Williams, Mrs Jewkes, and I, have been all three walking together in the garden; and she pulled out her key, and we walked a little in the pasture to look at the bull, an ugly, grim, surly creature, that hurt the poor cook-maid; who is got pretty well again. Mr Williams pointed at the sunflower, but I was forced to be very reserved to him; for the poor gentleman has no guard, no caution at all.

We have just supped together, all three, and I cannot yet think but all must be right. Only I am resolved not to marry, if I can help it; and I will give no encouragement, I am resolved, at least, till I am with you.

Mr Williams said before Mrs Jewkes, he would send a messenger with a letter to my father and mother. I think the man has no discretion in the world; but I desire you will send no answer, till I have the pleasure and happiness, which now I hope for soon, of seeing you. He will, in sending my packet, send a most tedious parcel of stuff, of my oppressions, my distresses, my fears; and so I will send this with it; (for Mrs Jewkes gives me leave to send a letter to my father, which looks well;) and I am glad I can conclude, after all my sufferings, with my hopes to be soon with you, which I know will give you comfort; and so I rest, begging the continuance of your prayers and blessings, Your ever dutiful DAUGHTER.

MY DEAR FATHER AND MOTHER, I HAVE SO much time upon my hands, that I must write on to employ myself. The Sunday evening, where I left off, Mrs Jewkes asked me, If I chose to lie by myself; I said, Yes, with all my heart, if she pleased.-Well, said she, after to-night you shall.-I asked her for more paper, and she gave me a bottle of ink, eight sheets of paper, which she said was all her store, (for now

she would get me to write for her to our master, if she had occasion) and six pens, with a piece of sealing-wax. This locks mighty well.

She pressed me, when she came to bed, very much, to give encouragement to Mr Williams, and said many things in his behalf; and blamed my shyness to him.-I told her I was resolved to give no encouragement, till I had talked to my father and mother.-She said he fancied I thought of somebody else, or I could never be so insensible.-I assured her, as I could do very safely, that there was not a man on earth I wished to have; and as to Mr Williams, he might do better by far; and I had proposed so much happiness in living with my poor father and mother, that I could not think of any scheme of life with pleasure, till I had tried that. I asked her for my money, and she said it was above in her strong box, but that I should have it to-morrow. All these things look well, as I said. Mr Williams would go home this night, though late, because he would dispatch a messenger to you with a letter he had proposed from himself, and my packet. But pray don't encourage him, as I said, for he is much too heady and precipitate as to this matter, in my way of thinking; though, to be sure, he is a very good man, and I am much obliged to him.

MONDAY Morning.

ALAS-A-DAY! we have bad news from poor Mr Williams. He has had a sad mischance fallen among rogues in his way home last night, but by good chance has saved my papers. This is the account he gives of it to Mrs Jewkes:

"GOOD MRS JEWKES,

“I HAVE had a sore misfortune in going from you. When I had got as near the town as the dam, and was going to cross the wooden bridge, two fellows got hold of me, and swore bitterly they would kill me, if I did not give them what I had. They rummaged my pockets, and took from me my snuff-box, my seal-ring, and halfa-guinea, and some silver and half-pence; also my handkerchief, and two or three letters I had in my pockets. By good fortune, the letter Mrs Pamela gave me was in my bosom, and so that escaped; but they bruised my head and face, and cursing me for having no more money, tipped me into the dam, crying, Lie there, parson, till to-morrow! My shins and knees were bruised much in the fall against one of the stumps, and I had like to have been suffocated in water and mud. To be sure, I shan't be able to stir out this day or two, for I am a frightful spectacle! My hat and wig I was forced to leave behind me, and go home a mile and a half without; but they were found next morning and brought me, with my snuff-box, which the rogues must have dropped. My cassock is sadly torn, as is my band. To be sure I was much frightened,

for a robbery in these parts has not been known many years. Diligent search is making after the rogues. My humble respects to good Mrs Pamela: If she pities my misfortunes, I shall be the sooner well, and fit to wait on her and you. This did not hinder me in writing a letter, though with great pain, as I do this, (To be sure this good man can keep no secret!) and sending it away by a man and horse this morning. I am, good Mrs Jewkes,

"Your most obliged humble servant.

"God be praised it is no worse! And I find I have got no cold, though miserably wet from top to toe. My fright, I believe, prevented me from catching cold, for I was not rightly myself for some hours, and know not how I got home. I will write a letter of thanks this night, if I am able, to my kind patron, for his inestimable goodness to me. I wish I was enabled to say all I hope, with regard to the better part of his bounty to me, incomparable Mrs Pamela."

The wicked brute fell a-laughing when she had read this letter, till her fat sides shook.Said she, I can but think how the poor parson looked, after parting with his pretty mistress in such high spirits, when he found himself at the bottom of the dam! And what a figure he must cut in his tattered band and cassock, and without a hat and wig, when he got home. I warrant, added she, he was in a sweet pickle!—I said I thought it was very barbarous to laugh at such a misfortune; but she replied, As he was safe, she laughed, otherwise she would have been sorry; and she was glad to see me so concerned for him. It looked promising, she said.

I heeded not her reflections, but as I have been used to causes for mistrusts, I cannot help saying, that I don't like this thing; and their taking his letters most alarms me.-How happy it was they missed my packet! I knew not what to think of it! But why should I let every accident break my peace? Yet it will do so, while I stay here.

Mrs Jewkes is mightily at me, to go with her in the chariot, to visit Mr Williams. She is so officious to bring on the affair between us, that, being a cunning, artful woman, I know not what to make of it. I have refused her absolutely, urging, that except I intended to encourage his suit, I ought not to do it; and she is gone without me.

I have strange temptations to get away in her absence, for all these fine appearances. 'Tis sad to have nobody to advise with! I know not what to do. But alas for me! I have no money, if I should, to buy any body's civilities, or to pay for necessaries or lodgings; but I'll go into the garden, and resolve afterwards

I have been in the garden, and to the backdoor; and there I stood, my heart up at my mouth. I could not see I was watched; so this

looks well. But if any thing should go bad afterwards, I should never forgive myself for not taking this opportunity. Well, I will go down again, and see if all is clear, and how it looks out at the back-door in the pasture.

To be sure there is witchcraft in this house, and I believe Lucifer is bribed, as well as all about me, and is got into the shape of that nasty grim bull to watch me! For I have been down again, and ventured to open the door, and went out about a bow-shot into the pasture, but there stood that horrid bull, staring me full in the face with fiery saucer eyes, as I thought. So I got in again, for fear he should come at me. Nobody saw me, however. Do you think there are such things as witches and spirits? If there be, I believe in my heart Mrs Jewkes has got this bull of her side. But yet, what could I do without money or a friend? O this wicked woman, to trick me so! Every thing, man, woman, and beast, is in a plot against your poor Pamela, I think! Then I know not one step of the way, nor how far to any house or cottage; and whether I could gain protection, if I got to a house: And now the robbers are abroad too, I may run into as great danger as I want to escape; nay, greater much, if these promising appearances hold. And sure my master cannot be so black as that they should not! What can I do? I have a good mind to try for it once more; but then I may be pursued and taken, and it will be worse for me; and this wicked woman will beat me, and take my shoes away, and lock me up.

But after all, if my master should mean well, he can't be angry at my fears, if I should escape; and nobody can blame me; and I can more easily be induced, with you, when all my apprehensions are over, to consider his proposal of Mr Williams, than I could here; and he pretends, as you have read in his letter, he will leave me to my choice. Why then should I be afraid? I will go down again, I think! But yet my heart misgives me, because of the difficulties before me in escaping; and being so poor and so friendless! O good God! the preserver of the innocent! direct me what to do!

Well, I have just now a sort of strange persuasion upon me, that I ought to try to get away, and leave the issue to Providence. So, once more- -I'll see, at least, if this bull be still there.

Alack-a-day! what a fate is this! I have not the courage to go, neither can I think to stay. But I must resolve. The gardener was in sight last time, so made me come up again. But I'll contrive to send him out of the way if I can, for if I never should have such another opportunity, I could not forgive myself. Once more I'll venture. Go direct my footsteps, and make smooth my path and my way to safety.

Well, here I am come back again, frightened like a fool out of all my purposes! O how ter

rible every thing appears to me! I had got twice as far again as I was before, out of the back door; and I looked and saw the bull, as I thought, between me and the door, and another bull coming towards me the other way. Well, thought I, here is double witchcraft, to be sure! Here is the spirit of my master in one bull, and Mrs Jewkes's in the other; and now I am gone, to be sure !-O help! cried I, like a fool, and ran back to the door as swift as if I flew. When I had got the door in my hand, I ventured to look back, to see if these supposed bulls were coming, and I saw they were only two poor cows, a-grazing in distant places, that my fears had made all this rout about. But as every thing is so frightful to me, I find I am not fit to think of my escape, for I shall be as much frightened at the first strange man that I meet with; and I am persuaded, that fear brings one into more dangers, than the caution that goes along with it, delivers one from.

I then locked the door and put the key in my pocket, and was in a sad quandary; but I was soon determined, for the maid Nan came in sight, and asked if any thing was the matter, that I was so often up and down stairs.-God forgive me, (but I had a sad lie at my tongue's end,) said I. Though Mrs Jewkes is sometimes a little hard upon me, yet I know not where I am without her: I go up, and I come down to walk about in the garden, and, not having her, know scarcely what to do with myself.-Ay, said the idiot, she is main good company, madam, no wonder you miss her.

So here I am again, and here likely to be; for I have no courage to help myself any where else. O why are poor foolish maidens tried with such dangers, when they have such weak minds to grapple with them! I will, since it is so, hope the best; but yet I cannot but observe how grievously every thing makes against me, for here are the robbers-though I fell not into their hands myself, yet they gave me as much terror, and had as great an effect upon my fears, as if I had: And here is the bull; it has as effectually frightened me, as if I had been hurt by it instead of the cook-maid; and so these joined together, as I may say, to make a very dastard of me. But my folly was the worst of all, because that deprived me of my money; for had I had that, I believe I should have ventured both the bull and the robbers.

MONDAY Afternoon.

So Mrs Jewkes is returned from her visit.Well, said she, I would have you set your heart at rest, for Mr Williams will do very well again. He is not half so bad as he fancied.-O these scholars, said she, they have not the hearts of mice! He has only a few scratches on his face, which, said she, I suppose he got, by grappling

among the gravel at the bottom of the dam, to try to find a hole in the ground to hide himself from the robbers. His shin and his knee are hardly to be seen to ail any thing. He says in his letter, he was a frightful spectacle. He might be so, indeed, when he first came in adoors, but he looks well enough now; and, only for a few groans now and then, when he thinks of his danger, I see nothing is the matter with him. So, Mrs Pamela, said she, I would have you be very easy about it.-I am glad of it, said I, for all your jokes, to Mrs Jewkes.

Well, said she, he talks of nothing but you ; and when I told him I would fain have persuaded you to come with me, the man was out of his wits with his gratitude to me; and so has laid open all his heart to me, and told me all that has passed, and was contriving between you two. This alarmed me prodigiously, and the rather, as I saw, by two or three instances, that his honest heart could keep nothing, believing every one as undesigning as himself. I said, but yet with a heavy heart, Ah! Mrs Jewkes, Mrs Jewkes, this might have done with me, had he had any thing that he could have told you of. But you know well enough, that had we been disposed, we had no opportunity for it, from your watchful care and circumspection.No, said she, that's very true, Mrs Pamela ; not so much as for that declaration that he owned before me he had found opportunity, for all my watchfulness, to make you. Come, come, said she, no more of these shams with me! You have an excellent head-piece for your years, but maybe I am as cunning as you. However, said she, all is well now, because my watchments are now over, by my master's direction. How have you employed yourself in my

absence?

I was so troubled at what might have passed between Mr Williams and her, that I could not hide it; and she said, Well, Mrs Pamela, since all matters are likely to be so soon and so happily ended, let me advise you to be a little less concerned at his discoveries, and make me your confidant, as he has done, and I shall think you have some favour for me, and reliance upon me; and perhaps you might not repent it.

She was so earnest, that I mistrusted she did this to pump me, and I knew how, now, to account for her kindness to Mr Williams, in her visit to him, which was only to get out of him what she could.-Why, Mrs Jewkes, said I, is all this fishing about for something, where there is nothing, if there be an end of your watchments, as you call them ?-Nothing, said she, but womanish curiosity, I'll assure you; for one is naturally led to find out matters, where there is such privacy intended.-Well, said I, pray let me know what he has said, and then I'll give you an answer to your curiosity.-I don't care, said she, whether you do or not; for I have as much as I wanted from him, and I

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despair of getting out of you any thing you ha'n't a mind I should know, my little cunning dear. Well, said I, let him have said what he would, I care not; for I am sure he can say no harm of me; and so let us change the talk.

I was the easier, indeed, because, for all her pumps, she gave no hints of the key and the door, &c. which, had he communicated to her, she would not have forborne giving me a touch of. And so we gave up one another, as despairing to gain our ends of each other. But I am sure he must have said more than he should; and I am the more apprehensive all is not right, because she has now been actually, these two hours, shut up a-writing, though she pretended she had given me up all her stores of papers, &c. and that I should write for her. I begin to wish I had ventured every thing, and gone off when I might. O, when will this state of doubt and uneasiness end!

She has just been with me, and says she shall send a messenger to Bedfordshire; and he shall carry a letter of thanks for me, if I will write it, for my master's favour to me.-Indeed, said I, I have no thanks to give, till I am with my father and mother; and, besides, I sent a letter, as you know, but have had no answer to it.She said she thought that his letter to Mr Williams was sufficient, and the least I could do was to thank him, if but in two lines.-No need of it, said I, for I don't intend to have Mr Williams. What then is that letter to me?-Well, said she, I see thou art quite unfathomable !

I don't like all this. O, my foolish fears of bulls and robbers!-For now all my uneasiness begins to double upon me. O what has this incautious man said! That, no doubt, is the subject of her long letter.

I will close this day's writing with just saying, that she is mighty silent and reserved to what she was, and says nothing but No or Yes to what I ask. Something must be hatching, I doubt. I the rather think so, because I find she does not keep her word with me, about lying by myself, and my money; to both which points she returned suspicious answers, saying as to the one, Why, you are inighty earnest for your money-I shan't run away with it. And, to the other, Good-lack! you need not be so willing, as I know of, to part with me for a bed-fellow, till you are sure of one you like better. This cut me to the heart, and at the same time stopped my mouth.

TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY.

MR WILLIAMS has been here; but we have had no opportunity to talk together: He seemed confounded at Mrs Jewkes's change of temper, and reservedness, after her kind visit, and their freedom with one another, and much more at what I am going to tell you. He asked, If I

would take a turn in the garden with Mrs Jewkes and him.-No, said she, I can't go. -Said he, May not Mrs Pamela take a walk?-No, said she; I desireshe won't.-Why, Mrs Jewkes? said he: I am afraid I have somehow disobliged you. Not at all, replied she; but I suppose you will soon be at liberty to walk together as much as you please: and I have sent a messenger for my last instructions, about this and more weighty matters; and when they come I shall leave you to do as you both will; but, till then, it is no matter how little you are together. This alarmed us both; and he seemed quite struck of a heap, and put on, as I thought, a self-accusing countenance. So I went behind her back, and held my two hands together, flat, with a bit of paper, I had, between them, and looked at him: and he seemed to take me as I intended; intimating the renewing of the correspondence by the tiles.

I left them both together, and retired to my closet to write a letter for the tiles; but having no time for a copy, I will give you the substance only.

I expostulated with him on his too great openness and easiness to fall into Mrs Jewkes's snares; told him my apprehensions of foul play; and gave briefly the reasons which moved me: begged to know what he had said; and intimated, that I thought there was the highest reason to resume our prospect of the escape by the backdoor. I put this in the usual place in the evening; and now wait with impatience for an an

swer.

THURSDAY.

I have the following answer :

"DEAREST MADAM,

"I AM utterly confounded, and must plead guilty to all your just reproaches. I wish I were master of all but half your caution and discretion! I hope, after all, this is only a touch of this ill woman's temper, to shew her power and importance: For I think Mr Bneither can nor dare deceive me in so black a manner. I would expose him all the world over if he did. But it is not, cannot be in him. I have received a letter from John Arnold, in which he tells me, that his master is preparing for his London journey; and believes, afterwards, he will come into these parts: But he says, Lady Davers is at their house, and is to accompany her brother to London, or meet him there, he knows not which. He professes great zeal and affection to your service: and I find he refers to a letter he sent me before, but which is not come to my hand. I think there can be no treachery; for it is a particular friend at Gainsborough, that I have ordered him to direct to; and this is come safe to my hands by this means; for well I know, I durst trust nothing to Brett, at the post-house here. This gives me a little pain; but I hope

all will end well, and we shall soon hear, if it be necessary to pursue our former intentions. If it be, I will lose no time to provide a horse for you, and another for myself; for I can never do either God or myself better service, though I were to forego all my expectations for it here. I am

"Your most faithful humble servant.

"I was too free indeed with Mrs Jewkes, led to it by her dissimulation, and by her pretended concern to make me happy with you. I hinted, that I would not have scrupled to have procured your deliverance by any means; and that I had proposed to you, as the only honourable one, marriage with me. But I

assured her, though she would hardly believe me, that you discouraged my application: which is too true! But not a word of the back-door key, &c."

Mrs Jewkes continues still sullen and ill-natured, and I am almost afraid to speak to her. She watches me as close as ever, and pretends to wonder why I shun her company as I do.

I have just put under the tiles these lines, inspired by my fears, which are indeed very strong; and, I doubt, not without reason:

"SIR,

"EVERY thing gives me additional disturbance. The missed letter of John Arnold's makes me suspect a plot. Yet am I loath to think myself of so much importance, as to suppose every one in a plot against me. Are you sure, however, the London journey is not to be a Lincolnshire one? May not John, who was once a traitor, be so again?-Why nee I be thus in doubt ?—If i could have this horse, I would turn the reins on his neck, and trust to Providence to guide him for my safeguard! For I would not endanger you, now just upon the edge of your preferment. Yet, sir, I fear your fatal openness will make you suspected as accessary, let us be ever so cautious.

"Were my life in question, instead of my honesty, I would not wish to involve you, or any body, in the least difficulty, for so worthless a poor creature. But, O sir! my soul is of equal importance with the soul of a princess; though my quality is inferior to that of the meanest slave.

"Save then my innocence, good Heaven! and preserve my mind spotless; and happy shall I be to lay down my worthless life, and see an end to all my troubles and anxieties!

"Forgive my impatience: But my presaging mind bodes horrid mischiefs! Every thing looks dark around me; and this woman's impenetrable sullenness and silence, without any apparent reason, from a conduct so very contrary, bid me fear the worst.-Blame me, sir, if you