Your ever affectionate and Faithful friend and servant, P. B

me.

LETTER LXXXIV.

MISS DARNFORD TO MRS B

[In answer to the preceding.]

MY DEAR MRS B

I HAVE been several times (in company with Mr Peters) to see Mrs Jewkes. The poor woman is very bad, and cannot live many days. We comfort her all we can; but she often accuses herself of her past behaviour to so excellent a lady; and with blessings upon blessings, heaped upon you, and her master, and your charming little boy, she is continually declaring how much your goodness to her aggravates her former faults to her own conscience.

She has a sister-in-law and her niece with her, and has settled all her affairs, and thinks she is not long for this world.

Her distemper is an inward decay, all at once, as it were, from a constitution that seemed like one of iron; and she is a mere skeleton. You would not know her, I dare say.

I will see her every day; and she has given me up all her keys and accounts, to give to Mr Longman, who is daily expected, and, I hope, will be here soon; for her sister-in-law, she says herself, is a woman of this world, as she has been. Mr Peters calling upon me to go with him to visit her, I will break off here.

Mrs Jewkes is much as she was; but your faithful steward is come. I am glad of it-and so is she. Nevertheless, I will go every day, and do all the good I can for the poor woman, according to your charitable desires.

I thank you, madam, for your communication of Lady Davers's letter. I am much obliged to my lord and her ladyship, and should have been proud of an alliance with that noble family; but with all Mr H's good qualities, as my lady paints them out, and his other advantages, I could not, for the world, make him my husband.

I'll tell you one of my objections, in confidence, (for you are only to sound me, you know,) and I would not have it mentioned that I have taken any thought about the matter, because a stronger reason may be given, such an one as my lord and lady will both allow, which I will communicate to you by and by.

My objection arises even from what you intimate of Mr H- -'s good-humour, and his persuadableness, if I may so call it. Now, madam, were I of a boisterous temper, and high spirit, such an one as required great patience in a hus

But, my dear Mrs B- -, my husband must be a man of sense, and must give me reason to think he has a superior judgment to my own, or I shall be unhappy. He will otherwise do wrongheaded things; I shall be forced to oppose him in them; he will be tenacious and obstinate, and will be taught to talk of prerogative, and to call himself a man, without knowing how to behave as one, and I to despise him of course, and so be deemed a bad wife, when, I hope, I have qualities that would make me a tolerably good one, with a man of sense for my husband. You know who says,

For fools, (pardon me this harsh word, 'tis in my author,)

As coins are harden'd by th' allay;
For fools are stubborn in their way,
As when 'tis in a wrong belief.
And obstinacy's ne'er so stiff,

Now you must not think I would dispense with real good-humour in a man. No, I make it one of my indispensables in a husband. A goodnatured inan will put the best constructions on what happens; but he must have sense to distinguish the best. He will be kind to little, unwilful, undesigned failings; but he must have judgment to distinguish what are or are not so.

But Mr H's good-humour is softness, as I may call it; and my husband must be such an one, in short, as I need not be ashamed to be seen with in company; one who being my head, must not be beneath all the gentlemen he may happen to fall in with; and who, every time he is adjusting his mouth for speech, will give me pain at my heart, and blushes in my face, even before he speaks.

I could not bear, therefore, that every gentleman and every lady we encountered should be prepared, whenever he offered to open his lips, by their contemptuous smiles, to expect some weak and silly things from him; and when he had spoken, that he should, with a booby grin, seem pleased that he had not disappointed them. The only recommendatory point in Mr His, that he dresses exceedingly smart, and is no contemptible figure of a man, as you have cbserved in a former letter. But, dear madam, you know, that's so much the worse, when the man's talent is not taciturnity, except before his aunt, or Mr B, or you; when he is not conscious of internal defect, and values himself upon outward appearance.

As to his attempt upon your Polly, though I don't like him the better for it, yet it is a fault

so wickedly common among men, that when a woman resolves never to marry till a quite virtuous man addresses her, it is, in other words, resolving to die single; so that I make not this the chief objection; and yet, I must tell you, I would abate in my expectations of half a dozen other good qualities, rather than that one of virtue in a husband.

But, when I reflect upon the figure Mr Hmade in that affair, I cannot bear him; and if I may judge of other coxcombs by him, what wretches are these smart, well-dressing, querpofellows, many of which you and I have seen admiring themselves at the plays and operas.

This is one of my infallible rules, and I know it is yours too; that he who is taken up with the admiration of his own person, will never admire a wife's. His delights are centred in himself, and he will not wish to get out of that narrow, that exceeding narrow circle; and, in my opinion, should keep no company but that of tailors, wig-puffers, and milliners.

But I will run on no farther upon this subject, but will tell you a reason, which you may give to Lady Davers, why her kind intentions to me cannot be answered; and which she'll take better than what I have said, were she to know it, as I hope you won't let her; and this is, my papa has had a proposal made to him from a gentleman you have seen, and have thought polite. It is from Sir W. G, of this county, who is one of your great admirers, and Mr B's too! and that, you must suppose, makes me have never the worse opinion of him, or of his understanding; although it requires no great sagacity or penetration to see how much you adorn our sex, and human nature too.

Every thing was adjusted between my papa and mamma, and Sir William, on condition we approved of each other, before I came down; which I knew not, till I had seen him here four times; and then my papa surprised me into half an approbation of him; and this, it seems, was one of the reasons why I was so hurried down from you.

I can't say but I like the man as well as most I have seen; he is a man of sense and sobriety, to give him his due, and is in very easy circumstances, and much respected by all who know him; and that's no bad earnest, you are sensible, in a marriage prospect.

But hitherto he seems to like me better than I do him. I don't know how it is; but I have often observed, that when any thing is in our power, we are not half so much taken with it, as we should be, perhaps, if we were kept in suspense. Why should this be?

But this I am convinced of, there is no comparison between Sir William and Mr Murray. Now I have named this brother-in-law of mine; what do think?

you

Why, that good couple have had their house on fire three times already, and that very dangerously too. Once it was put out by Mr Murray's mother, who lives near them; and twice Sir Simon has been forced to carry water to extinguish it; for, truly, Mrs Murray would go home again to her papa; she would not live with such a surly wretch; and it was, with all his heart; a fair riddance! for there was no bearing the house with such an ill-natured wife; her sister Polly was worth a thousand of her!

I am sorry, heartily sorry, for their unhappiness. But could she think every body must bear with her, and her fretful ways?

They'll jangle on, I reckon, till they are better used to one another; and when he sees she can't help it, why he'll bear with her, as husbands generally do with ill-tempered wives; that is to say, he'll try to make himself happy abroad, and leave her to quarrel with her maids, instead of him; for she must have somebody to vent her spleen upon, poor Nancy!

I am glad to hear of Mr Williams's good for

tune.

As Mr Adams knows not Polly's fault, and it was prevented in time, they may be happy enough. She is a sly girl. I always thought her so something so innocent, and yet so artful, in her very looks! She is an odd compound of a girl. But these worthy and piously turned young gentlemen, who have but just quitted the college, are mere novices, as to the world: Indeed, they are above it, while in it; they therefore give themselves little trouble to study it; and so, depending on the goodness of their own hearts, are more liable to be imposed upon, than people of half their understanding.

I think, since he seems to love her, you do right not to hinder the girl's fortune. But I wish she may take your advice, in her behaviour to him at least; for as to her carriage to her neighbours, I doubt she'll be one of the heads of the parish, presently, in her own estimation.

'Tis pity, methinks, any worthy man of the cloth should have a wife, who, by her bad example, should pull down, as fast as he, by a good one, can build up.

This is not the case of Mrs Peters, however; whose example I wish was more generally followed by gentlewomen, who are made so by marrying good clergymen, if they were not so before.

Don't be surprised, if you should hear that poor Jewkes is given over!-She made a very exemplary-Full of blessings-And more easy and resigned, than I apprehended she would be.

I know you'll shed a tear for the poor woman: -I can't help it myself. But you will be pleased that she had so much time given her, and made so good use of it.

Mr Peters has been every thing that one would wish one of his function to be, in his attendances and advice to the poor woman. Mr Longman will take care of every thing.

So I will only add, that I am, with the sincerest respects, in hopes to see you soon, (for I have a multitude of things to talk to you about,) dear Mrs B

Your ever faithful and affectionate
POLLY DARNford.

LETTER LXXXV.

MRS B TO LADY DAVERS.

MY DEAR LADY Davers,

I UNDERSTAND from Miss Darnford, that before she went down from us, her papa had encouraged a proposal made by Sir W. G, whom you saw, when your ladyship was a kind visitor in Bedfordshire. We all agreed, if your ladyship remembers, that he was a polite and sensible gentleman, and I find it is countenanced on all hands.

Poor Mrs Jewkes, madam, as miss informs me, has paid her last debt. I hope through mercy she is happy! Poor, poor woman! But why say I so! Since in that case, she will be richer than an earthly monarch!

Your ladyship was once mentioning a sister of Mrs Worden, whom you could be glad to recommend to some worthy family.-Shall I beg of you, madam, to oblige Mr B's in this particular? I am sure she must have merit, if your ladyship thinks well of her; and your commands in this, as well as in every other particular in my power, shall have their due weight with

Your ladyship's

Obliged sister, and humble servant, P. B.

Just now, dear madam, Mr B tells me I shall have Miss Goodwin brought me hither to-morrow!

LETTER LXXXVI.

LADY DAVERS TO MRS. B

[In answer to the preceding.]

MY DEAR PAMELA, I AM glad Miss Darnford is likely to be so happy in a husband, as Sir W. G will cer tainly make her. I was afraid that the proposal I made would not do with her, had she not had so good a tender. I want too to have the foolish fellow married-for several reasons; one of which is, he is continually teazing us to permit him to go up to town, and to reside there for some months, in order that he may see the world,

as he calls it. But we are convinced he would feel it as well as see it, if we gave way to his request: for in understanding, dress, and inconsiderate vanity, he is so exactly cut out and sized for a town fop, coxcomb, or pretty fellow, that he will undoubtedly fall into all the vices of those people; and perhaps, having such expectations as he has, will be made the property of rakes and sharpers. He complains, that we use him like a child in a go-cart, or a baby with leading-strings, and that he must not be trusted out of our sight. 'Tis a sad thing, that these bodies will grow up to the stature of men, when the minds improve not at all with them, but are still those of boys and children. Yet he would certainly make a fond husband; for at present he has no very bad qualities. But is such a Nar cissus!-But this between ourselves, for his uncle is wrapt up in the fellow-And why? Because he is good-humoured, that's all. He has vexed me lately, which makes me write so angrily about him-But 'tis not worth troubling you with the particulars.

I hope Mrs Jewkes is happy, as you say!Poor woman! she seemed to promise for a longer life! But what shall we say?

Your compliment to me about my Beck's sister is a very kind one. I am greatly obliged to you for it. Mrs Oldham is a sober, grave widow, a little aforehand in the world, but not too much; has lived well; understands household management thoroughly; is diligent, and has a turn to serious things, which will make you like her the better.

I'll order Beck and her to wait on you, and she will satisfy you in every thing as to what you may, or may not expect of her.

You can't think how kindly I take this motion from you. You forget nothing that can oblige your friends. Little did I think you would remember me of (what I had forgotten, in a manner) my favourable opinion and wishes for her, expressed so long ago-But you are what you are a dear obliging creature.

Beck is all joy and gratitude upon it; and her sister had rather serve you than the princess. You need be under no difficulties about terms: She would serve you for nothing, if you would accept of her service.

I am glad, because it pleases you so much, that Miss Goodwin will be soon put into your care. It will be happy for the child; and I hope she will be so dutiful to you, as to give you no pain for your generous goodness to her. Her mamma has sent me a present of some choice products of that climate, with acknowledgments of my kindness to miss. I will send part of it to you by your new servant; for so I presume to call her already.

What a naughty sister are you, however, to be so far advanced again, as to be obliged to shorten your intended excursions, and yet not to semi me word of it yourself! Don't you know how much I interest myself in every thing that makes

for my brother's happiness and yours?-More especially in so material a point as is the increase of a family, that it is my boast to be sprung from. Yet I must find this out by accident, and by other hands!-Is not this very slighting?-But never do so again, and I'll forgive you now, because of the joy it gives me: Who am Your truly affectionate and obliged sister, B. DAVERS.

I thank you for your book upon the plays you saw. Inclosed is a list of some others, which I desire you to read, and to oblige me with your remarks upon them at your leisure; though you may not perhaps have seen them by the time you will favour me with your ob

servations.

LETTER LXXXVII.

MRS B TO LADY DAVERS.

MY DEAR LADY DAVERS!

I HAVE a valuable present made me by the same lady; and therefore hope you will not take it amiss, that, with abundance of thanks, I return yours by Mrs Worden; whose sister I much approve of, and thank your ladyship for your kind recommendation of so worthy a person. We begin with so much good liking to one another, that I doubt not we shall be very happy together. A moving letter, much more valuable to me than the handsome present, was put into my hands at the same time with that; of which the following is a copy :

MRS WRIGHTSON (FORMERLY MISS SALLY GODFREY) TO MRS B———.

"HAPPY, DESERVEDLY HAPPY, DEAR LADY!

"PERMIT these lines to kiss your hands from one, who, though she is a stranger to your person, is not so to your character: That has reached us here, in this remote part of the world, where you have as many admirers as have heard of you. But I more particularly am bound to be so, by an obligation which I can never discharge, but by my daily prayers for you, and the blessings I continually implore upon you and yours.

"I can write my whole mind to you, though I cannot, from the most deplorable infelicity, receive from you the wished-for favour of a few lines in return, written with the same unreservedness: So unhappy an I, from the effects of an inconsideration and weakness on one hand, and temptations on the other, which you, at a tenderer age, most nobly, for your own honour, and that of your sex, have escaped: Whilst IBut let my tears in these blots speak the restVOL. VI.

as my heart bleeds, and has constantly bled ever since, at the grievous remembrance-But believe me, however, dear madam, that 'tis shame and sorrow, and not pride and impenitence, that make me loath to speak out, to so much purity of life and manners, my own odious weakness. "Nevertheless I ought, and I will accuse myself by name. Imagine then, illustrious lady, truly illustrious, for virtues, which are infinitely superior to all the advantages of birth and fortune!-Imagine, I say, that in this letter you see before you the once guilty, and therefore, I doubt, always guilty, but ever penitent, Sarah Godfrey; the unhappy, though fond and tender mother of the poor infant, to whom your generous goodness, as I am informed, has extended itself in such a manner, as to make you desirous of taking her under your worthy protection. God for ever bless you for it! prays an indulgent mother, who admires, at an awful distance, that virtue in you, which she could not practise herself.

"And will you, my dearest lady, will you take under your own immediate protection the poor unguilty infant? Will you love her, for the sake of her suffering mamma, whom you know not? for the sake of the gentleman, now so dear to you, and so worthy of you, as I hear with pleasure he is? And will you, by the best example in the world, give me a moral assurance, that she will never sink into the fault, the weakness, the crime, (I ought not to scruple to call it so,) of her poor inconsiderate-But you are her mamma now: I will not think of a guilty one therefore. And what a joy is it to me, in the midst of my heavy reflections on my past misconduct, that my beloved Sally can boast a virtuous and innocent mamma, who has withstood the snares and temptations, that have been so fatal-elsewhere!-and whose example and instructions, next to God's grace, will be the strongest fences that can be wished for, to her honour !-Once more, I say, and on my knees I write it! God for ever bless you here, and augment your joys hereafter, for your generous goodness to my poor, and, till now, motherless infant!

"I hope the dear child, by her duty and obligingness, will do all in her little power to make you amends, and never give you cause to repent of this your unexampled kindness to her and to me. She cannot, I hope, (except her mother's crime has had an influence upon her, too much like that of an original stain,) be of a sordid, or an ungrateful nature.-And, O my poor Sally! if you are, and if ever you fail in your duty to your new mamma, to whose care and authority Í transfer my whole right in you, remember that you have no more a mamma in me, nor can you be entitled to my blessing, or to the fruits of my prayers for you, which I make now, on that only condition, your implicit obedience to all your new mamma's commands and directions.

2 F

"You may have the curiosity, madam, to wish to know how I live: For no doubt you have heard of all my sad, sad story!-Know then, that I am as happy as a poor creature can be, who has once so deplorably, so inexcusably fallen. I have a worthy gentleman for my husband, who married me as a widow, whose only child, by my former, was the care of her papa's friends, particularly of good Lady Davers and her brother.-Poor unhappy I ! to be under such a sad necessity to disguise the truth!-Mr Wrightson (whose name I am unworthily honoured by) has several times earnestly entreated me to send for the poor child, and to let her be joined as his-killing thought that it cannot be!-with two children I have by him!-Judge, my good lady, how that very generosity, which, had I been guiltless, would have added to my joys, must wound me deeper than even ungenerous or unkind usage from him could do! And how heavy that crime must lie upon me, which turns my very pleasures to misery, and fixes all the joy I can know in repentance for my past misdeeds!-How happy are you, madam, on the contrary; you, who have nothing of this sort to pall, nothing to mingle with, your felicities! who, blessed in an honour untainted, and a conscience that cannot reproach you, are enabled to enjoy every well-deserved comfort, as it offers itself; and can improve it too, by reflections on your past conduct! While mine, alas! like a winter frost, nips in the bud every rising satisfaction!

"My husband is rich, as well as generous, and very tender of me-Happy if I could think myself as deserving as he thinks me!-My principal comfort, as I hinted, is in my penitence for my past faults; and that I have a merciful God for my judge, who knows that penitence to be sincere!

"You may guess, madam, from what I have said, in what light I must appear here; and if you would favour me with a line or two, in answer to the letter you have now in your hand, it will be one of the greatest pleasures I can receive: A pleasure next to that which I have received in knowing, that the gentleman you love best, has had the grace to repent of all his evils; has early seen his errors, and has thereby, I hope, freed two persons from being, one day, mutual accusers of each other: For now I please myself to think, that the crimes of both may be washed away in the blood of that Saviour God, whom both have so grievously offended!

May that good God, who has not suffered me to be abandoned entirely to my own shame, as I deserved, continue to shower down upon you those blessings, which a virtue like yours may expect from his mercy! May you long be happy in the possession of all you wish! And late, very late, (for the good of thousands I wish this!) may you receive the reward of your piety, your generosity, and your filial,

"DEAREST MADAM,

"I EMBRACE with great pleasure the opportunity you have so kindly given me, of writing to a lady, whose person though I have not the honour to know, yet whose character and noble qualities I truly revere.

"I am infinitely obliged to you, madam, for the precious trust you have reposed in me, and the right you make over to me, of your maternal interest in a child, on whom I set my heart the moment I saw her.

"Lady Davers, whose love and tenderness for miss, as well for her mamma's sake as your late worthy spouse's, had, from her kind opinion of me, consented to grant me this favour; and I was, by Mr B's leave, in actual possession of my pretty ward about a week before your kind letter came to my hands.

"As I had been long very solicitous for this favour, judge how welcome your kind concur rence was to me; and the rather, as, had I known that a letter from you was on the way to me, I should have apprehended that you would have insisted upon depriving the surviving friends of her dear papa, of the pleasure they take in the dear child. Indeed, madam, I believe we should one and all have joined to disobey you, had that been the case; and it is a great satisfaction to us, that we are not under so hard a necessity as to dispute with a tender mamma the possession of her own child.

"Assure yourself, dearest, worthiest, kindest madam, of a care and tenderness in me to the dear child, truly maternal, and answerable, as much as in my power, to the trust you repose

in me. The little boy that God has given me, shall not be more dear to me than my sweet Miss Goodwin shall be; and my care, by God's grace, shall extend to her future as well as to her present prospects, that she may be worthy of that piety, and truly religious excellence, which I admire in your character.