III. If my inheritance of storms hath been I have sustained my share of worldly shocks, i. I have been cunning in mine overthrow, The careful pilot of my proper woe. IV. Mine were my faults, and mine be their reward. V. Kingdoms and Empires in my little day i. I am not yet o'erwhelmed that I shall ever lean A thought upon such Hope as daily mocks.—[MS. erased.] without a tempest. He was known to the sailors by the facetious name of 'Foul-weather Jack' [or Hardy Byron']. 444 But, though it were tempest-toss'd, Still his bark could not be lost.' He returned safely from the wreck of the Wager (in Anson's voyage), and many years after circumnavigated the world, as commander of a similar expedition" (Moore). Admiral the Hon. John Byron (1723–1786), next brother to William, fifth Lord Byron, published his Narrative of his shipwreck in the Wager in 1768, and his Voyage round the World in the Dolphin, in 1767 (Letters, 1898, i. 3).] 1. [For Byron's belief in predestination, compare Childe Harold, Canto I, stanza lxxxiii. line 9, Poetical Works, 1899, ii. 74, note 1.] A spirit of slight patience ;-not in vain, Even for its own sake, do we purchase Pain. VI. Perhaps the workings of defiance stir VII. I feel almost at times as I have felt iii. In happy childhood; trees, and flowers, and brooks, Which do remember me of where I dwelt, Ere my young mind was sacrificed to books, Come as of yore upon me, and can melt My heart with recognition of their looks; And even at moments I could think I see Some living thing to love-but none like thee.v. VIII. Here are the Alpine landscapes which create But something worthier do such scenes inspire: For much I view which I could most desire, i. For to all such may change of soul refer.—[MS.] ii. Have hardened me to this-but I can see iii. Things which I still can love-but none like thee. [MS. erased.] Before I had to study far more useless books.-[MS. erased.] Ere my young mind was fettered down to books. iv. Some living things · 1. [Compare --[MS.] "Then stirs the feeling infinite, so felt In solitude, when we are least alone." Childe Harold, Canto III. stanza xc. lines 1, 2, Poetical Works, 1899, ü. 272.] And, above all, a Lake I can behold Lovelier, not dearer, than our own of old.1 IX. grow Oh that thou wert but with me !—but I And the tide rising in my altered eye.' X. I did remind thee of our own dear Lake, By the old Hall which may be mine no more. Leman's is fair; but think not I forsake The sweet remembrance of a dearer shore : Sad havoc Time must with my memory make, Ere that or thou can fade these eyes before; Though, like all things which I have loved, they are Resigned for ever, or divided far. XI. The world is all before me; I but ask To mingle with the quiet of her sky, She was my early friend, and now shall be XII. I can reduce all feelings but this one; And that I would not ;-for at length I see i. And think of such things with a childish eye.—[MS.] 1. [For a description of the lake at Newstead, see Don Juan, Canto XIII. stanza Ivii.] Such scenes as those wherein my life begun! I had been better than I now can be; The Passions which have torn me would have slept ; I had not suffered, and thou hadst not wept. XIII. With false Ambition what had I to do? Little with Love, and least of all with Fame; Surely I once beheld a nobler aim. But all is over-I am one the more To baffled millions which have gone before. XIV. IL And for the future, this world's future may i. The earliest were the only paths for me. The earliest were the paths and meant for me.—[MS. erased.] ii. Yet could I but expunge from out the book Of my existence all that was entwined.—[MS. erased.] iii. My life has been too long—if in a day I have survived · 1. [Compare [MS. erased.] "He who first met the Highland's swelling blue, Hail in each crag a friend's familiar face, The Island, Canto II. stanza xii. lines 9-12. His "friends are mountains." He comes back to them as to a "holier land," where he may find not happiness, but peace. Moore was inclined to attribute Byron's "love of mountain prospects" in his childhood to the "after-result of his imaginative recollections of that period," but (as Wilson, commenting on Moore, suggests) it is easier to believe that the "high instincts" of the "poetic child" did not wait for association to consecrate the vision (Life, p. 8).] Of life which might have filled a century,1 Before its fourth in time had passed me by. XV. And for the remnant which may be to come1 XVI. For thee, my own sweet sister, in thy heart il. From Life's commencement to its slow decline We are entwined-let Death come slow or fast,i. The tie which bound the first endures the last! [First published, Letters and Journals, 1830, ii. 38-41.] i. And for the remnants —.—[MS.] ii. Whate'er betide —.—[MS.] iii. We have been and we shall be [MS. erased.] 1. [Byron often insists on this compression of life into a yet briefer span than even mortality allows. Compare "He, who grown agèd in this world of woe, In deeds, not years, piercing the depths of life," etc. Compare, too— "My life is not dated by years— There are moments which act as a plough," etc. |